Advent 2009

Alright, it’s already the 3rd week Advent, but unlike previous years, I can’t seem to feel the atmosphere of this festive season. As a byproduct, I don’t really look forward to Christmas this year. Even though I attended a few in the past 4 years, this year, I’ll rather stay at home. The human emotion is really complex and I can’t pinpoint exactly what is wrong. All I can say is that after a year without Christmas parties, or rather, after experiencing how parties can be a way to socialize to pick people’s brain, I have formed different expectations of how parties should be run! Never had I attended a party that I felt so comfortable, so at ease, than the one at Povo. And I don’t even know anyone there! Christmas parties here are stressful events. I face difficulties enjoying myself almost every single time.

Of course there are fears echoed by some of my friends that I’ll turn into a social recluse. I don’t know. I guess I can’t be bothered now. I’ll just go for some where I won’t be expected to do much. I just want to enjoy. I need a break.

Christmas gift? Who cares. I’ll just buy myself a book. It’s just much much wiser not to expect anything from people.