Exams are coming up, and yes, they do feel different from the normal ‘big’ exams when one moves on the next stage of life. Firstly, there isn’t a study break that is avaialble for us to focus and concentrate. Secondly, it’s not an exam to test your understanding of all that you have learned in the past 4 years. That, I believe, is the main difference.

So, after this, what am I to do? It’s a question that I’ve sought to answer since May last year. I remembered Jo advising me to pray, and I put it off time and time again. When he readviced me to pray again, I promptly tried it out, and found the peace of God surpassing all understanding. This is not to say that I have found God’s calling for me in the next phase of my life – in fact I don’t. Therefore, this is a matter to bring before God in fear and patience, to hear His call and also to lead me to where He wants to lead me. I will not hide that at times I am anxious, but I have learned to wait for His timing.  My plans will always be inferior to His and there is no need to rush to do something. Whatever I do, just do them in conjunction with advancing the Kingdom of God and that will be fine. I know it seems easily verbalizing it, but in reality, to be kingdom-minded is not so natural to us humans with a debased mind.

I’m worrying even before I get to the crossroad, so I think it’s not a wonder that God isn’t speaking yet.